Kendall Jenner has been famous for over half her life. She was only 11 when Keeping Up With the Kardashians premiered, and she's had to navigate life in the spotlight ever since. She's not complaining – it's given her enormous privilege – but it sounds like she's not exactly thrilled about the role fame plays in her life. Or rather, she wouldn't have chosen to live this way.
“Since I was really young, I felt out of place in my family,” the model told The Wall Street Journal Magazine. “I was born into this life, but I didn’t choose this life. I’m not built for [fame] by any means…. I’m not good at it. I do it, and I’ve learned how to do it.”
That learning curve was not without bumps in the road. Jenner said that in her younger years she would scream at paparazzi and only recently accepted them as part of life. “It took me [almost] 20 years to be like, Okay, I guess I’m getting used to it now and it’s fine and I get it,” she said.
Compare that with the way her older sisters seemingly sought out publicity opportunities: “[Kim’s] like, ‘I used to go to Kitson on Robertson just to get photographed....’ I think she was built for [this life].”
Maybe that's why she revealed that she feels less like a Kardashian and more like a Jenner. “I obviously understand I fall under the umbrella of the Kardashian sisters,” she said. “It’s just weird to me...because I am just like my dad in so many ways. I’m such a Jenner, in my opinion.”
Carefully skirting the self-pity trap, Kendall Jenner said that her situation is “challenging for me a lot more than it’s not,” adding, “I consider myself one of the luckiest people on the planet to be able to live the life that I live…. I’m not going to sit here and say, ‘Poor me’ [about the attention], but I do think that it’s pretty intense…. People are more mean to my family in general. They take everything and make it a bad thing.”
Unplug, girl! Go back to the beach!
This story originally appeared on GLAMOUR US.